Miss u......

We have been really these happy days

As happy as trees   in May

With you by my side

Kept all my fears aside

The voice of you

The thought of you

The cranky messages you sent

The poetry words you said

The warmth and comfort we shared

We were miles away which we never cared

Everything and each thing you did to me

Made me feel am the princess of your heart

I do discern nothing in you has changed

But why do i miss you, still??????

I love you......

I love you......
Which you think,i shall speak out

I love you......

What you tell,i shall follow instantly

I love you......
When you need,i shall be there

I love you......
Why you worry,i shall cry then

I love you......
Where you go ,i shall go too

I love you......

Am With you now and always......

What is it,that is missing??????

Something is yet to be said or done

I attempt to figure it out

Is it cos of life's hushing rush

Which conquers my mind alltime

Or is it cos of the superiority complex 

Or possessiveness or whatever

I am fed up of things 

Which were close to me once

I run out of thoughts

Even to my dearies and fairies

Life is as usual in its run

Which no longer appeals me as fun

I need  a  word or deed

Which is my very need

A word which will invigorate

A deed making me feel venerated

Am the one ,the ONE who is me and very much me

And i wish to conquer and occupy my place ,solely......

Am nt the first ,but the best......

I wanted to be the first

I aspired to be the first

I longed to be the first

I  was inspired to be the first

And i endeavored to become  the first

I  walked up the hill,i thought am the first ever

I won the match ,i thought am the first

I lost.,i thought am the first

whether its my innocence or my idiocy

Am nt the first,i can never be the first.

Whatever i have done,doing or do

Whatever i said,saying,or will say 

Somebody has ,have ,or had

I was disappointed,kinda vexed

What is this life?

I can never be first 

And yeah ,not the last too

Cos am nt the first or last human in this world

I am following the foottraces of survival

But i wont be the same as all

Ya,am not he first,

Am nt the last

But i will be surely one 

Among the best,

The best ever......

Rude

Nope ,i dont have the heart to see some one rude to me or to any other.I have always given it back regardless of who it was may be my friens or my principal,just whoever.People do occasionally think from one end attimes and think that am the rudest girl,just seeing me giving the dose back,if only they knew that what has happened earlier.

Growing up is never always fun,people keep criticising you,if you are popular,whatever you do ,whether you are or not.I have been facing a lot such situations,but i never stopped to explain whom i am,if they think am rude,am least bothered.But my mom keeps preaching me ,society matters a lot and all must think me a good polite girl alone.I do go by her words attimes trying to be polite ever,smiling when hurt or one pest talks to you just toooo much or whatever.

It so happened that one day a senior of mine,standing in lab never bothered to answer my friends query,pretending to havent listened at all.Well ,i din't do anything then.After a few weeks,it so happened that she came to our class to me regarding a department function,i did the same and just the same,she touched and called i responded then,she enquired if i din;t hear me calling before,i said 'nope'.After all she would have understood how bad it hurts.May be this is kiddish ,to go for tit for tat,but i just wanted to share this ,may be am rude,whatever.I hate people who hurt,rude.......

oh yeah,so ,this is what happened......

I have been studying a lot ,lots and lots ,oh dearies ,nothing interesting but the syllabus.Trying to study hard yaar.You know what ,i planned to stay glued up to my book without any distraction of mind.The more i tried, the more i got distracted.What stupid mind i have ,never listening to me at any cost,huh?.Today,i just give it up to time .I studied an hour may be, you can call it the other way as 50 plus mins.Oh yaar,mind is really getting horned and seeks freedom ,when i try to capture it in my book.There was two in me, as shown in indian cinemas.A sathana like an angel warning me time is running and asking me to run with it and study  ,instead of wasting time.Yet another sathana ,with horns ,just telling me to laze out before the tv,or to start on  chatiing with friends .Yep,i was attracted and distracted as every other student does.But ,i have decided now,Am sathana,a girl who keeps up her thought,so to study with whole heart from tomorrow.He he he,after all confessions and resolutions always start from tomorrow right?huh?Okies,lets see how much i keep up my thought.......

Little one......

I have been watching her all day ever since i knew her.Each morning i wakeup to find her more beautiful then the day before.Each day i love to wake up by hearing her lovely sweet voice.Her touch makes me feel a feather.So are you guys ,wondering whom am talking about is it? well ,its a sweet little girl who resides next door.She is just an one and half years old little one,but she just makes me mad with her smile.So sweet is her smile than that of  honey.I gaze upon her simply to see her walk with her tiny legs,i just keep hearing her talks,believe me i never understood what she says,but still i love to hear her.You know what i keep asking my mum before i would have been like this little girl,what all i did then and all other stuff.And the reply from her was  a wierd look followed by a query back to me, 'where you from mars?haven't you seen small girls before?'.Well,she may be  right,but none attracted me so much as this girl,just note na ,she made me write a post for her.Well,whether this post is interesting or crap,i enjoyed talking about a little one whom i admire a lot......

lost......

Life has been keeping me so happy

i got everything i ever needed

i got everything i gazed upon

i got everything i passed by

i got everything a girl ever dreamt of

Wait,did i get what i wished for?

Don't i ever have my own wishes?

Was this my real happiness ?

Am i like a slave to this life?

Do i live on whatever life gives me ?

I feel i lost my originality ,my uniqueness,myself

I never have lived up life,yeah i never have

Where do i search my life again,where did i lose it?

I learnt to adjust and that is where my originality departed

I must never have learnt adjusting,i lost my self

So, the festivity goes thus .......

Just in festive mood yaar,no mood to study,no mood to sit idle,no mood to browse,no mood to even write some poem or story,u see the words just doesnt fall in place even for a story,i have been shopping and shopping and still feel i have something yet to get.Thanks to my mum,all sweets and savouries are ready.you know, what i do daily is to plan, to study for exam, note,just planning,i take out my book plan which chapter is easy and what can be done and all such stuff and then keep it aside thinking that i have studied hard for the day.Then i try to relax my self and keep my brain active ,sharp whatsoever you can call ;)and try to play some games in my system some brain teaser games,some animated games and all stuff,i endup browsing.what was supposed to be a relaxation, would make me much tired and i just rest before the tv with all the eatables in hand and give nonstop work to my eyes and yeah ofcourse,my mouth.Atlast fall a sleep, this is what is happening with me for the past few days,well,i guess sathana has turned out to a lazy bug,may be a lazy lazy lazy bug.Okies, the point of this post was to wish you all a very happy and safe diwali.After all festival is to enjoy,so ya enjoy ,have fun,burst out with crackers and laughter,eat all stuff forgeting your diet,Happy Diwali friends:)

Time for yet another award yaar :)

Hey guys!i got the International bloggers community award ,from who else rads again,thanks a ton rads am reallllllly privileged.And as award is always to be given to others in turn too,I am giving it to few of my fellow bloggers too.

There are certain rules to be followed yaar...

You got to link to the person who tagged you

You got to copy the image above,the rules and the questionnaire in this post

You got many blogs?then you can post in all of your blogs too

You got to answer the questions following these rules

You should recruit atleast seven pals of you blog roll by sharing this with them

Now you should come back toBLoGGiSTa iNFo CoRNeR (PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE THIS LINK) at http://bloggistame.blogspot.com/ and leave the URL of your Post in order for you/your Blog to be added to the Master List.

Quite interesting ,huh?

Okies ,now the questions and my answers.

The person who tagged you: Rads

His/her site's title and url:http://rads-blogazine.blogspot.com/

Date when you were tagged: July 08,2009

Persons you tagged:

http://parvkaushik.blogspot.com/

http://rads-blogazine.blogspot.com/

http://m4maruvada.blogspot.com/

It, is,with you...

If you are not, able to smile

When a friend of yours,near and dear

Changes with time,brings out your tear

The trouble, is, with you...

If you are not, able to know

Who cares ,you the most

whom,you can always trust

The blunder,is, with you...

If you are not able to succeed

Keeping your confidence, up

When there is disappointment, showing up

The gaffe,is , absolutely with you...

HE and SHE

He is, her handsome prince

She is, his loving princess ever

He always,does 'everything for my girl'

She forever,says 'anything for my man'

He is,her Life

She is,his survival

Love is,What is eternal

Only,when it is mutual

Let 'he' and 'she' be blessed ever

With this love forever and ever......

Getting conscious......

Its time, i turned back 

Its time, i stopped to think

Its time, i doubted myself

Its time, i hated me

Well,i never must have

I never ever should have my dear

Thing were all fine

I  was the happiest

only till i doubted me

Things were all worse

I was the miserable

Only when i doubted me

I thought things are in my hands

Nope,god is the one who holds it

Thanks my lord

you made me realise atleast now

I would never doubt me,its you who guide me

Never,ever again ......

Hey Guys......Am BACK yaaaaaar :))))))

Oh my goodness,that has been a reaalllllly long time far away from my blog,just cast away.you know what,i missed my my blog so muchhhhhh and yeah, of course, my fellow readers and followers too who just appreciate me even for the most silly and most genuine post of mine.Well guys i just cant and wont stay away from my blog anymore.Well ,i guess god has decided that i must continue my scribblings and torture you guys,lol....

Okies cooooool.am really happy with my fellow readers who kept pinging and buzzing me in my absence,i just loved it,the feeling that am missed and wanted is so nice you know.Well,well ,well.My guys i will blog herafter regularly,no offline business anymore.

So ya,Happy reading my scripts.Tanx for making me feel special in my absence too and counting me in though i wasn't active....:))))))

Lucky to have you......my dear

Nothing can appeal me much than your smile

Even when we are cast away a mile

You are always there to hear my stupidities

My wild dreams,stupid thoughts and activities

I have never felt when with you any boredom

you always let me have my freedom

Your words,actions everything is so gentle

you take care of me and act as a mantle

I create a mess as bad it can be

you are always there to bear with me

There is nothing  that i fear 

when i know you are near

True love

What is true love?

Romance with your love, is intimacy of body and heart

Friendship with your love, is intimacy of mind and soul

True love is the right combination of friendship and romance.

Love lasts forever even without romance but not without friendship

Those who balance both well,lasts in love forever and ever.......

Yet again a college love story

Engineering  college,was as busy as ever,students walking to and fro in the campus,girls and guys each with their best costumes and best smile on face.The college reopens for the next academic year that day.Sara and Rahul,had joined computer engineering and it was their very first day in college.Sara is a pretty girl,who had the charm of a princess and brightness of the moon,she was  born with silver spoon.Rahul is a handsome guy from a very normal family.

The classes started and days passed.Sara never knew that she was the sensation among the boys in class.Every guy and girl  in her class and in the campus wanted to get introduced to her.When sara turned to talk to her friends in the back bench she could feel many eyes starring at her,while she is walking in the corridor,guys acting madly to get her attention.Whatever she did ,uttered  was a topic to discuss for both girls and guys.She felt uncomfortable at this limelight on her in college.Rahul too was carried away by sara's beauty ,her politeness,her soft attitude.He just wanted her to be in his life.Well,he knew how hard it is in reality.Rahul wanted to sweep her off her feet,he decided to do it.He did not act mad as other guys do,to boo her.He thought differently.

It was valentine's day and almost every guy in the college campus,just dropped sara a love letter,her seniors in the form of ragging,her classmates in her desk,other guys indirectly through her friends,few even proposed her directly.sara was totally fed up and wanted to get rid of all those pests.Sara was in her class talking with her friends,when entered Rahul,He went near sara and called her,sara lifted her face and thought'oh my god! here goes another...'Rahul gave her a paper,which sara thought was another love letter.She got it and kept it in her desk.Rahul added,' sara,read it'.Irritated sara opened the paper to read and just laughed heartily and looked Rahul and said,'ok'.Rahul smiled at her lovingly and left the class slowly turning to see her again and again,sara too felt like seeing him.Everyone wanted to know ,what Rahul gave and what she accepted happily.You guys too wanna know what it read?here it is

"Hi sara,

Don't forget to eat lunch today

yours,

Rahul"

Days passed everything was as usual with secret stares among Rahul and sara.Rahul was creating waves in which sara was getting caught slowly.They had their practicals session that day,each were busy before their system trying to program ,code ,debug.While our bug Rahul,was busy seeing sara,sara felt someone is seeing her,she turned to see who it was,to her astonishment ,it was Rahul and never did he shift his eyes inspite of sara seeing him.Sara was kinda blushing and couldn't stand his sight.She shifted her place,but still Rahul kept seeing her.Sara knew Rahul is seeing her and after a few moments pretending to be unaware of his glance,she turned around to see if he is still looking at her,nope,Rahul was busy programming and helping his friends to debug.'Thats it",thought sara,but she couldn't avoid thinking of Rahul who stood out among the crowd ,which tried to talk to her,see her ,act madly for her.Something attracted her towards him.She longed if Rahul would see her,talk to her and act madly for her as others do.Rahul was throwing pebbles silently in her heart with his attitude.

Okies,now,is the climax.It was a evening and the class was over.Everyone was leaving their classes ,sara too was,when Rahul,blocked her way near the door.He allowed every other girl and guy who wanted to leave to pass by but not sara.Few of her class mates were shocked and few enjoyed as they thought something interesting is going to happen.Sara was spell bound,she liked as well as disliked his behaviour.She told him to leave her way.He saw her eyes and replied with a smile."Nope".Sara felt helpless,her other classmates  with her inside the class expected her to behave rude to him,but sara couldn't she told "please rahul leave my way".He replied again with the same smile,"No".Sara got tensed and it showed in her face,seeing her turning red,rahul allowed her to go and followed her with a paper begging her,"sara ,please take it".Now sara confirmed to herself that it is a love letter.This was what sara expected,but she said firmly at him,"No".Rahul smiled naughtily and dropped the letter above her books in her hand and went saying,"read it ,bye".Sara wanted to throw it down before him,but she din't.She read the letter,

"you know sara,'I love you',

These are the words people say when they love someone.

So you know now ,right?"

Sara felt teased.She went to her car and was about to leave when rahul neared her.He waved his hand,Sara got down the car and asked," what?",anxiously.Rahul held her soft hands,wore the ring, he got in her fingers and saw her eyes romantically and lovingly and uttered,"i love you,sara,will you be with me forever?".Sara was speechless,she couldn't breathe,her voice struck,her hands shivered.Rahul held her shivering hands tightly.Sara leaned in his shoulders.Love spoke the rest.Made for each other they were.......

Survival of the fittest

He stood on the street smoking.'He' is not the hero of this story nor the villain,but the specimen of this post.should we name a specimen?let it be 'he'.He thought of his life smoking.He felt his life is the worst in the world.He had a lot of complexes in his life and it is as follows...He din't get a good career,he din't understand that he is blessed that he got a job while others are still searching for one.He din't have a good face,little did he think of people without eyes,legs and physically disabled.He din't have family  assets and he had to support his entire family,he never realised  that he had a family and his was far better than those living in huts.He did love a girl which never succeeded,he din't realise it was his fault to rub people up the wrong way.He always sat in a corner of the room in dark thinking and worrying he is unlucky and not blessed.He skipped food,three meals a day.He longed for sympathy.He expected people to care him always.His thoughts did reflect in his behaviour.He is the most miserable one in this world now.His friends too started avoiding him because of his behaviour.He lost the very important stage of his life youth,Very important people in this world -Friends and alltogether his life.Now who is responsible for this?HE.He alone right?Everyone has problems in their own style of life.Life is all about handling problems and living it to the fullest happily.Only those people survive others just exist.Remember darwin's theory-"Survival of the fittest".God and angels are always pleased with people who are optimistic and cheerful and bless them alone.So you pessismistic guys out there,hope you understand...

Silence

A cyclone doesn't hurt as it does

A earthquake does less harm

Silence hurts......

It is the silent water that drowns a man

A word not uttered when needed kills too

Silence pains......

Busy streets,chaos and confusion doesn't fright

Emptiness of silence terrifies

Silence is grave......

Shouting and yelling in anger is better

Silent actions  guilt the opponent

Silence kills......

Light is love, peace and god

Dark is hatred,uproar and evil 

Silence is dark......

Speech is silver,Silence is golden

Speech give us ease,silence make us cease

Is it golden then?

In love I live......

Oh my god!I have to say, people reading this may feel jealous of me,and turn red with envy or some sort of feeling,am sure girls,out there would wish to be me.Well,no chance,you can never ever become me,atleast as cranky as me,ha ha ha.You know what guys,today has been as,as usual mismatch of feelings yaar,I was little bored,little flying,little excited,but as usual smiling and happy.And today i went on shopping for gold,the happiness knew no bounds,when i found the exact kinda jewel,i desired to buy.Oh man,god is always by my side and he does know what i would wish and desire for the next moment,that he creates it for me, before i go for it.The happiness is extreme when,what you desired and wanted happens extraordinarily than you had thought,my desires happen so,i keep thanking god for his kindness and blessings for me.Actually i wanted to write a poem or a story in this post too,cos nowadays this blog is more constituted of my thoughts than my scripts,but my fellow readers ,you know right sathana's mind is blank,when extreme happiness or sadness strikes her.This blog has turned out to be my online diary ,huh?.But hope i din't disappoint sharing my thoughts.I am not able to differentiate things if it happens as per my desire or i have excelled the art of being happy, with what happens,but am damn happy yaar.In happiness,in blessings,in love,i live......

Truth

Oh oh,i got another award as well as a tag.From who else, rads only.She has awarded honest scrap award as well  as tagged me to write ten honest stufff about me.Well rads,you don't have to tag me for that whatever i speak its always true,honestly...lol.Well,jokes apart.Ten things about me??????oh my god,i need to write it.okies ,okies,here i go......

1.Sathana is a cute princess,she is a angel  and a devil attimes,she cares much for no things and doesn't care at all for some things.

2.I am a dreamer ,just love to dream.I have huge dreams which i aspire to achieve in my life time.Dreams which people would never even think of......

3.I portray myself  to people as i wish them to perceive,its hard to understand the real me,except my very close buddies.

4.I hate my brother the most,but still i love him too,i like his care and affection,but too much of anything is good for nothing,so i hate him for that.

5.I like to be independent attimes and dependent attimes,am freaky attimes,ethnic attimes,Purely mismatch of thinkings,its really tough to know me yaar......

6.Adventures,thrills excites me a lot.

7.I am not a foodie,but my mom says i live on icecream,air and water.

8.My  world  revolves around my loved ones,I am a true homely creature.I can be shut up in my home for months as long as my dear ones are with me.

9.I hate the hot sun and sweating.i just love rain,rain comes when am happy or when am sad,just to cheer me up,i can get wet in rain how long i wish,i won't catch cold

10.I love comics and novels,i can't take my eyes of a novel unless i finish it,even if it is hours.I hate studying for exams,i never did after schooling i guess...lol

Well guys,i believe sathana is god's pet ,she is blessed and god is with her always.I think i have been a self -dabba in this post,but i just can't think any truth apart from these...lol.Thanks for awarding and tagging Rads,hope i have come out with the best of truths about me......

Nothing is better than something!

Its been long since i wrote a post which appeals to my own heart, may be just a few days,but it seems too be long to me.i have heard lot of people say 'something is better than nothing',well,i can't agree and won't agree.i feel 'nothing is better than something'.It is not as hurting or horrible than to adjust with something in the place of what we desired to have.wat say yaar?If i wish to have a planet and if i get a country,i can never agree and console my self,that i got a country,so i should be happy with it.I will walk off with bare hands ,hoping to get the planet soon.i believe only such guys achieved much in life too.People who dream high can never walk off with something.Dreaming to achieve things,or believing your dream will never portray you as adamant,if people think so,just don't care them.Because if you are n't adamant in your dream,it will never become a reality.you will be forced to accept 'something' as they say 'something is better than nothing'.

Believe yourself,Believe your dream,Believe your dream.If not your dream then,NOTHING IS BETTER THAN SOMETHING......

Vote

Hey guys,you know today is a historical day,sathana has casted her very first vote today.I was kinda excited before voting and happy after voting:).I have performed my duty to my country and you know what i prayed today morning when i got up,that my india must come under good hands and be well taken care of,hope my prayers are answered.It was a  different cool experience and to avoid the hot sun,i was the first to vote in my booth,i voted early morning itself.You know what, the polling booth people made us wait nearly half hour since the machine wasn't ready ,it was shame on the administration.It revealed their carelessness,if only each knew how many crores has been spent on this 15th parlimentary election.Felt really bad at that behaviour of the officials.Whatever,i was happy that many of the citizens were keen in voting inspite of the queue,delay and temperature.A mismatch of feelings,i have now.Hope a political party which thinks of the country ,its people and welfare alone forms the government......God bless india

Indifference

Think before you  speak

Analyse before you act

Scribble before you paint

Pretend before you perform

Know before you acknowledge

Write before you script

Realise before you react

Interpret before you intimate

For in future you may not be able to......

Here i go again......

It happens,again and again and am so happy today,i attended a wedding party evening.It was fun.My friend, a senior friend of mine was teasing me if i will write about the party in today's post, actually guys i never thought of writing about it but you see as i told the devil's out in me and i always like to do what people say i mustn't or tease me about doing.So am gonna write about the party only.It was cool evening but very hot out there, i just don't understand where chennai's temperature is heading.Thanks to the flyovers and bridges ,dint get caught in much traffic today.To see the wedding or to wish the wedding couples is always a nice experience.I enjoyed too,don't know why,am as happy as ever,smiling forever.

My mind is blank whenever extreme happiness or dullness strikes,even today am so blank and this is one of those vacant posts,hey but you must say i don't post so much nowadays,so cooooool,will post a poem or story tomorrow,bear with this post my fellow readers......

My first award......

Hey guys......god is again and again cultivating this thought in me ,whenever i am about to lose hope and faith.Yeah ...Sathana always believes that what she keeps thinking or wishes or believes will only happen to her,it is evident in everything that happens to me,though attimes,not immediately,but for sure what is believed,desired and thought will happen.Buddies ,i was thinking of blogger awards in the past week,you can say for the past few days,i had mentioned it my poem'waiting'as well.You know what ,i got it,Its Rads ,who presented me with this award.

Am so happy and moved.Joy is doubled only when you share it,so i too wanna give the same award to Rads,Parv Kaushik and Sandeep Reddy.

So here is the award......

Rads is awarded for her Gizmos review and thoughts she shares on whatever she comes across interestingly.Each day i start by reading her comments,if at any day i dont have her comments ,you don't know,i will miss something the whole,thanks a lot dear.

Parv Kaushik for his wonderful poems and the comments he leaves to my poems.

Sandeep for his world news and his rare comments in my blog....lol

Thank you three of you for following my blog and commenting and aprreciating yaar,if you only knew i started blogging for fun and your comments made me responsible in writing.Tanx buddies.......

Remember what you believe is what you get,so ever be optimistic and believe what you wish.

I wish,i were......

I wish i  were the light

Fast ever traveller in this world

I will be the first to reach you always

I will make ur surroundings bright

The very flash you step into dark

I wish i were the air

Invisble and omnipresent

I will respire through you always

I will surround you with breeze 

The  very moment you are upto panic

I wish i were the sky

with clouds that are high

I will see you all day beneath me

I will make you cool with rain

The very instant you tend to strain

I wish i were the water

Pleasant and immense

I will fall cheerfully to give you a pleasant mood

I will quench your thirst

The very minute you feel parched

I wish i were the land

Gentle and loud

I will give you all my treasures

I will hold you in my hands 

The very jiffy you are about to slip

I wish i were so......

But am a little imp girl

Combating and comprehending

Just existing and trying to live

I wish i were......

Reach out

Stand up 

when you have to,even if your legs are fractured

Reach out

when you are needed,even if you are dying

Smile up

when you feel like,even if your cheeks are bleeding

Smirk down

when you are hurted,even if you can't bear it

Love eternally

when you are in love,even if not reciprocated

Live perpetually

when you are born,even if you know your death day

Cos' this is a world which is eternal

Everything else is momentary

Anything and everything changes

Except the change itself

Cos'people love,live,smile only with those,who is with them

Reach out

when you are needed,even if you are dying

If you don't reach out,they will learn to live in your absence

Om shanti,shanti,shanti......

I don't know.I really don't know.I believed and still believe that what we think alone happens,attimes something different too does happen intermediately,before what you think happens.I never like to break my word,i would never with consciousness.I feel bad when i have to,i had made it in mind that i must never be without posting even a day,but it so happened,i couldn't last two days.Just a thought strikes me,those words we say while completing yogasana's,'om shanti ,shanti,shanti'.Hope you guys know,shanti means peace.First 'shanti' - is to prevent any disturbance form our mind and body,the second one is to give us peace from others and the last one is from nature or any other external factor.My posting in my blog was affected from the third factor.I too feel like saying om shanti,shanti,shanti......

A story of love's significance

It was a pleasant evening.Sara and maximus were sitting and talking to eachother,relaxedly.Sara was a sweet cute girl at her twenty's and maximus a handsome guy who had a charm at all people, he comes across in his twenty-eight.They loved each other so very much.Sara knows maximus than anyone else and so do maximus,he knows sara.They made a wonderful picture talking,smiling and laughing.Made for each other they were......

At one point of time,if you should call it as fate or innocence of sara,she got disturbed for a joke maximus cracked.Maximus was just trying to pull her out of legs,which sara din't realise.She started emoting angrily and never knowing it could hurt her beloved,started talking words and words.Maximus just couldn't stand.It was since,sara spoke without thinking of her man,her man was disturbed Because,she din't understand him yet.It left a scar in their hearts and a sleepless night.Sara felt guilty and maximus wounded.

Morning dawned,everthing was still the same,though they tried to talk well not hurt their love still more,there was something missing.Sara's heart cries for hurting him,and he too still couldn't talk to her with the same old ease,though sara tried to make him normal with her smile and talks.Sara felt she is gifted to have maximus in her life and the thought that she hurted him burns her heart.Maximus still tries not to show his hurt to her,but she could make it out,since she is the one who knows him well.Sara needs this punishment and even more than this for having hurt her beloved.It will take some time for him to be normal and for sara a very long time,a very very long time,may be once she feels her sweetheart is smiling happily and when she feels she is keeping him really happy.Well,that is love......

Hey guys,this is the story of a friend of mine,names have been changed,just wanted to share this,cos as people say relationship is like glass,once broken can never be made,handle with care......If you love someonedearly,please think of them before you speak,if not,there is no point in loving them......Handle your loved ones like water in hand,hold them softly.gently,most of all comfortably,If you hold them tight or if you hold them loose, they will fall off your hand......

Waiting ??????

30 minutes

1800 seconds

108000 milliseconds

I have this is my hand

I am made to wait

Waiting can be fun as well as frown 

It can be spent in planning

It can be spent in reading

It can be spent in complaining

I always prefer it in dreaming

Well,what shall i dream in this 30 minutes

May be,am wrong few minutes have already past

Well my,what shall i dream now?

i keep thinking and planning about what to dream

Just trying to rewind what all i wanted to be

Shall i dream am the queen of this world?

Or shall i dream am the best poet in the world?

Nor shall i dream as talking to god?

either shall i dream to win the best blogger award?

No,maximum visitors and readers are the best awards 

Oh my god,i just don't get any thought to dream about

Dreams must be spontaneous or planned?

oh god,i wanted to dream now,why querying myself?

Well,just relax,though i tried to plan,dream and all

Time doesnt wait for none,30 minutes is about to be over 

Hey my readers,i was trying to write some poem on waiting,ended up thus...lol.Well,i am experimenting and as usual......

Break down the wall or it will make us fall

Between you and me,there is a wall

If it stands ,it will make us fall

Break down the wall

It makes us dismal

Moments shared seem to be a blemish

Its all and only the wall's gibberish

Attimes makes us blameworthy and fight

It is trying to leave our relationship a blight

The wall is starting its attrition

Pull it down before it is a partition

Break down this wall my dear

Or it will make us fall......

A legible scribble !!!!!!

Feel like flying up to the sky ,above the clouds ,just high and high,where god is said to be dwelling.I wanna ask him few very important queries yaar.I think god is one though we call him with different names like jesus,allah,shiva,vishnu and all,if there has to be gods like our imagination, i guess there must be another planet for them to live.And may be we can visit their planet in future years than to visit temples,churches,mosques......lol.Oh come'on,am not gonna talk nuts.I think i started nuts,yeah,why should i fly above the clouds and try  to find where god stays like said in our people's myth, god is very much there in all,and am sure he will  be knowing whatever we do,think or say.Even if i scold him now in my heart and pretend to pray him sincerely outside,god will know that too,right?i don't know,today i got mixed feeelings,i feel so very happy and also little,very little worried about my future.I guess everyone at my age normally worries about future.So its all in the game.Hey guys i am even worried about not writing any story or poem in this post.....lol.Coool,have a great weekend my fellow readers......

A little imp note

So,am here to post again.Guys ,just fix up your mind now itself,"sathana is a good girl".Once you finish reading this post ,you may think different.You know what it is not a crime am gonna talk about neither it is  baddie stuff,but still you know what, as etiquettes are being followed,it is little imp kinda note.Okies ,okies,wanna know what is?.Yep,i will tell.You see what am upto nowadays is,  you know,i just like to do what people say i mustn't.I become a devil attimes,i keep teasing others,i do exactly what they say i mustn't do.You know what they would have told me it is not good for me to proceed in real care,i used to realise the same after doing it out,but i never reveal it out and pretend to be done well.Don't you imagine horns on my head,nope am not a devil by all means.Am a pure angel:).Attimes people would have said not to proceed because they couldn't complete the same work or want to do that for themselves.You know i finish it before them with flying colours and that makes feel up above the sky,its a true bliss,if only you experienced it...... 

My india......

My  dear country- India

Words can never reveal its worth

Can i call upon thee to reveal its qualities?  

Family hierarchy to reveal the dynasty

Sculptures to portray how artistic we are

Various religions  to show unity in diversity

Oldever civilisation to show how upright we are

Mighty kings to show our bravery

Ahimsa to show our love for others

Culture structured to live,life happily

Epics narrated to stimulate a positive attitude

Cuisines fetched out the foodie in me

Sarees brought out the feminity in me

Everest stands to speak my altitude of pride

Taj mahal shines to convey my love for it

 India is my country which i love ever

Its my paradise on earth,always a treasure

Happiness continues......

And so what happened was,i found a theme interesting and a theme which captivated me.Well guys this is that.So how is the new look of sathana's blog???she is so excited about it.She has put in  nearly a lot of her time altering it.Its all in the game.

Am so happy today too,my happiness goes on and on,no words to explain my happiness.Something or the other keeps me happy and smiling.yo guys,am born to be happy :).I was thinking, how am i gonna bear the happiness,when god fulfills my dreams and wishes.But you know what , i realised onething, which normally people say, happiness is in our mind not anywhere else.May be i am mastering the art of being happy.So what is in hold for you guys is just this quote,to keep you guys too  happy.Try out......

Happyyyyyyy

You know what today am so happy,don't know why,i feel this happiness often.Though i think to find a reason,i just can't find anything.What i did all day was just to relax...which means to lay in the bed with my favourite comics -tinkle,archies.etc,with my favourite snacks-cheetos,fruit &nut,tea cake,just tryin to read a story and eat and dream.You know what it is my favourite pastime ever.Simply love to be so.May be thats the reason ,am so happy today.Dreams keep us happy always,keep us going,make us smile,urges us to live,tempts us to do a lot .right?i dream of everything that is achievable not achievable,yo man afteral its a dream,why shouldn't i think what is not possible in it atleast?You know what,i climb even mountains,perform stunts,kick of enemies like Angelina jolie in tomb raider,i rule over the kingdom as the princess,fly above clouds like superman and what not?whatever my heart desires...Dream is fiction,but its happiness is fact.

I am my dear......

I may not be there,where you are attimes,

but am always there

I may not be  able to talk to you,when you call,

but am always talking in our hearts

I may not be in your arms,when you need

but am always there

I may not be with you,smiling at you

but am in your smile

I may not be able to give my praise,when you win

but then,am the proudest

I may not be there to console you,when you lose

but am the one who cares most

I may not be able to,but i am my dear......

Feeling lost...

Few things in life never had an answer.Why we come across stupid situtations?why we do wrong?why we come across bad times?why our friend leaves us?why do we fail the important work?why we cry for a movie?why we feel bad about ourself's?Why our dear ones are not with us when we need them?The list goes on and on.Hope everyone would have heard "nothing ever does happen without god's knowledge".If so why the hell does he create all such situations and experiences in life.Everyone are god's child right?Then why should he give us a bad situation and then save us from that?Why should he a create a terrorist as well as a priest?Are we toys for him to play with?Just feeling lost :(

A tale of love and its pain......

Sana lay in the rug.Her music sytem was playing the best of her favourite music,but little did it capture her attention.She lifted her head once in a while, to see the words, her man,Rishi, has texted her that day.Her mobile din't find her,seeing any other sms the whole day.She just opened her man's sms and read it again and  again."sorry,i couldn't catch up today,will see you on monday,take care".She knew nothing else can be done,but to wait for monday.She missed him  so much.

Rishi was out in a movie as promised,with his cousin who has come home for vacation.Has to take his mom to shopping that evening.and list goes on since it was a weekend,and all of his family members wanted him to spend time with them each in their own way.But inspite of all such demanding works,he missed sana badly,even a moment of loneliness will take his thoughts to sana.

About an year ago,as we all say ,by destiny,rishi and sana met each other.Without knowing that they are going to fall in love for one other,they became friends.Rishi will be the first,to pull sana out of her legs whenever he gets chance and sana would also be the first,to tease rishi.They had goodtimes,bad times,fights,smiles,cries and all other stuff which happens in every relationship.But never did they let each other down.Rishi will even flirt other girls before sana to see her turn red and sana in return would talk to everyone out there, except rishi,to tease him back.But deep in their heart they knew how they cared each other.By hook or crook,god tied them up together,and now they are the cuttest,lovable,caring and understanding pair ever.

They stood up all bad times,but what they both could never stand for was missing each other.It so happened that attimes,by something or the other each other couldn't meet,talk and be with each other.Those days pained morethan anything on this world,but thats life...Dreams and converstion in hearts made them smile.Longing for each other too, makes them live.Soon they will be married and live a harmonius life with rhythm of love and care.Then happiness will alone speak their love in their eyes.God bless them.

Note:

Hey guys,if you find this interesting do let me know,may be i will write this story in detail in series as one post daily stating their sweet nothings,freaking fights,romantic moments,love and all such events.What say yaar?

What is your happiness??????

"Whats your happiness,ma?",i asked my mom.She gave me wierd look."what???".I repeated with an addition of another query,"what is your happiness?what makes you happy?".She told instantly,"if you ,your brother and dad are happy and well,thats my happiness,your wellness makes me happy".I smiled at her ,same did she.I was bit moved and felt heavy,mom's are always so.In few minutes as i lay in sofa,thinking her words.I got a call from my friend,i asked her the same.She replied,"if i get a day or two of break from work ,that makes me happy,i can relax as much as i want" .I asked my little brother ,he told me if kolkatta knight riders win thats his happiness,since he is a fan of sharukh.i went on asking whom all i met today,who all rang up to me,who all came online,everyone.you know what,i just got different,unique,unlike,diverse replies.Yo..,man,where on earth do they get such thoughts on happiness.yeah ,everyone is unique,but still...it was kinda coooool experience knowing people's happiness.you know a little imp in our apartment told she will be happy only when the girl opposite to her apartment falls down in her bicycle.I was gasping.Oh my god!such mean thought at such small age,she portrays thats her happiness.

I think this post is nonsense at one thought,but you see,my happiness reflects in my post.Well,am not so very happy nor sad,i am missing something.I feel incomplete.I am not able to put my soul into this script,i repeat this again and again.Sathana will fix up things soon.

It happens,its all in the game.

Hurt,hurts...

Have you ever hurt anyone whom you really care and love so much?Well,if so when you came to know you have hurted them,how on earth did you feel?did you feel much worse than you think that would have hurted them or did u feel bad about yourself? i felt ashamed of me.I felt that i behaved selfishly.i cursed myself and experiencing an ununderstandable mysterious pain.It just made me understand acting without thinking just cos she is your dear friend or your dear mom or your's will just make the other person feel uncomfortable.I am kinda disturbed yaar,life is still unwinding me lot of emotions and lessons to me.God only knows,what is still in hold,but in the other instinct its okay man,it just teaches me how and what and all i must avoid in future.Growing up can never be always fun.Life is n't too good always.

Well,well.cooooooool,this post is  of  my rants.Sathana is becoming nuts,she hurts and gets hurted :(

Oh my god!

I had a bad idea to change my blog,the way it looked,the way it was,the background and all such stuff,in short to change its template.I did find an idea of uploading one of my favourite rain snap as the background,I worked on its HTML as well.you know i haven't put my effort so, even in my engineering labs or my practicals.I did put my heart and soul,this day,its sulry afternoon,sitting in my system,though the stupid Ac din't work, sweating and puffing.And yeah,whatever i do,i do it efficiently right,so i did complete the task.I had to change the entire formatting right from the wigets,everything,it took me the whole of afternoon to complete it out.It showed a lot of errors in the HTML and well i somehow managed to get what i wanted it to look like.So you want to know what was the problem that made say 'Oh my god!'huh?wait,wait...you see the blog did look presentable and nice.But i din't get attached to the new picture,it made me feel at someelse blog,i was sentimentally attached to my dear old template.Moreover i felt it would be slightly difficult for the readers to read since the background was rain.So, i just switched back to old one.It made reconstruct the entire blog,its widgets,its gadgetsand everything:(

It all started in my thought to try out change.'Weeeeeeell.sathana ,change is not for a sentimental stupid like u',i said myself.Okies,Anyways,i have learnt HTML better than before.

Its all in the game......

I hate rules......do you?

A hatred has come over in me

I guess it hasn't come over now

It has growed and nutured deep

In my heart as i grew

This hatred is towards the rules

Those ruining rules laid on me

Never did i have any clues

You will know only if you were me

It made wry and cry

It got my best and worst

It hurted badly and sadly

It builded me a toy and coy

Rules has to be broke

Rules has to be laid

Former, those others laid on me

Latter, what i want on me

Rules are to make us live, life

Not to make us run out of life

I can make my very own rules

That is what the remedy,the only capsule...

 

Devil is out in me

"Idle mind a devil's workshop"

How many of you agree to this saying?I don't.i have always experienced nice thoughts which can be long cherished and valued when my mind is idle.But though my mind is busy with hectic work and pressure, i have always had evil thoughts,which the devil in me creates:(.I will not be able to finish the work i was doing, efficiently.I will be carried of ,with my evil, it happens.I feel whether we are idle or active,we should try not to be affected by the evil thoughts.My mind is not in its way today,this is also one my vacant thoughts post.I guess i post so,atleast once in a week.Its that wicked evil,not sathana.....I don't have anything to say ,but to bear this no sense post......

I don't go by words......

I don't go by words,when a baby cries for milk

I don't go by words,when a child longs to play

I don't go by words,when a girl wills to venture dreams

I don't go by words,when a mother hugs in care 

I don't go by words,when a friend clutches from fall

I don't go by words,when a said to be rival smiles

I don't go by words,when the rain is so tempting 

I don't go by words,when a rule is not a rule indeed

I don't go by words,when actions speak more than words

I don't go by words,when the eyes reveal what the lips deny

I don't go by words,when spoken words were really not meant

I can never go by words,when my heart tells what am into is right......

I,me,My mom......

I just can't tell how much i care

My love for you is  tender

Am your angel,attimes am your devil

You bear with me with a smile

I hurt you badly,Drive you mad

I always do it to you when am sad

I confide in you,attimes maintain secrecy

Though you know it,you give me privacy

I fight to eat

 a racket i create

Whatever i do,say or behave, you are the same

If only i knew having you is my real fame

I have to tell you,Everthing that is gifted in me is cos of u

Everthing that has hurted you is cos of me

My sweet dear mother,You are so soft as a feather

You are the sweetest mother ever,am afraid i ain't a perfect daughter

Uninterestingly interesting...

hey people,if anyone has just dropped in to read something interesting today,well,er.....am sorry.i am not posting interesting today.Am rather in vacant thoughts now.I don't know if we call it is as vacant thoughts,i have a thought to post na,i mean i have it in my mind that i must post daily right?I do have other thoughts as well.But what to share?what to?i have no idea.

Am just  going to script whats going on my mind,whatever it is.

-Sleep has become a rival to me,it never does come when i need it and comes without any prior notice,when am just awake to do some work.

-Am running short of words to express things at times

-I can never complete any sms or post without ellipsis...here go iam again...

-I think of writing something that wins millions of hearts

-I just  like appreciation,praise or flattery whatever it is,it makes me feel high and happy

-I should stop being careless and write out something serious hereafter

-But wait,i think my poems and stories are really awesome,though am not so serious yet into writing

-I have a great talent of writing without editing,he he he,if only u knew my first script is always my final too

-I can never read my script again,sorry ,only my fellow readers you deserve that punishment ha ha ha

-And yep,another thing,i sit before the monitor and think of the idea or concept or whatever i have to write that day

-I am a self dabba atimes,it happens yaar

-I become happy while writing or reading,it keeps me smiling

-The second thing that makes me instantly happy is dreaming

-Okies,though am not sleepynow, i think i will go to sleep now and dream of writing something interesting tomorrow

-And yo...I guess this post has become interesting now,its not as i said in the starting,what do you guys say?

Life

I am,in the situation of robert frost

Life is giving me choices among the rest

I have to choose one,at my own cost

And that,what would be my quest.

I sit up in my bed thinking all night,

Is there anything which will make everything all right?

Yep,It is to hold my dream tight,

And to make it true ,even fight.

Life gives me a mixture of emotions

It tries to make  me stay

Am standing among all the commotions

Wanting to make my way.

I need to pave my way to make myself, alive

Have to care for my dears, make them say

This is for what you gotto live

What am i gonno do to yay?

Letting go of my dream is to let go of my life

Without my life,why the hell should i stand on this worldly knife?

Love story of a princess

It was a very pleasant evening.All the people in the kingdom were so happy and smiling.Each girl and boy in every home,was getting ready for the party tonight at the palace.The princess turned 21,that day and the king wanted to celebrate it,with his fellow people.The excitement among the guys were more,because they have heard of the beauty of the princess,but never seen her.Girls too just longed to have a glimpse of the princess.

"Sam,should we really go to party tonight?",asked maximus,annoyed  seeing the frantic efforts of sam 'getting ready for the party' ."what??don't you wanna see the princess?we are going",replied sam decidedly.Maximus never did care for any girl.All, he loved in his life was his horse,his sword and chances to reveal his bravery.Sam stood wearing his best suit, with a content heart before the mirror and asked ,"Do i look handsome?maximus...".Maximus gave a dry look,but he has to accept because sam did look dashingly handsome."yeah ,man ,you look great!",replied maximus.Sam added,"do wear some other dress maximus,we are going to the grand party of the king,for the princess birthday",looking at the the plain clothes of maximus."Its okay man,lets go",maximus replied.Sam knew he can never make maximus do what he doesn't feel like doing,so he has to agree.They left to the party.

Party was on,when they entered.People were fluttering like butterflies,cheerfully,as if they themselves were princes and princesses.It was cool sight to visualize,really rare sight.All were in one place,the princes of various nations,the landlords,the peasants and fellow country people.

Each one were treated alike in the grand party,It created a chaos among the princes.When all the chaos,were still on.

Entered princess sarah,her long frock trailing,her earrings tingling,diamonds on her necklace shining.She looked like an angel come to earth.All the princes who were expressing their annoyance on the disgrace done to them to be treated along with country people,just forgot everything.They coudln't take their eyes of sarah.The other  people were happy and dumstruck as well.Everyone was gazing sarah like anything.Sarah went near the king ,unaware of the sensation she has created.

Sam ,shouted in happiness"look! she is here",he added,"Oh my god! she is awesome".Maximus did not hear what sam said.He was carried away by the princess as well.He couldn't speak ,he just was n't live there.Everyone wanted to get introduced to sarah.Several prince attempted to get her attention,they hurried to her and kept talking something.Nothing seemed to interest sarah,she was as silent as grave ,nor did she give them a reply or a glance.

Maximus recovered to his senses.'she is my girl',he thought,'i have to take her hand'.He just walked straight to  princess sarah."My dear lady! would you like to dance with me?",he said with a smile.Sarah was attracted by the voice and its query,none had the guts to talk to her so.She lifted her face,to see him.She found a young man looking at her with a cute smile in his eyes and lips,asking her hand.Hardly could she speak anything.What she did ,she never knew,she kept her hand in his.Maximus held her hand as gently as if he was carrying a flower.They walked to the dance floor,started dancing, the music changed from polka and then to salsa and on.Oblivious of the music and others gazing at them in astonishment,sarah and maximus danced, his hand in her waist,her hands around his neck seeing each other,his eyes smiling at her still,her lips smiling at him back.Neither did maximus speak nor did sarah,but they had understood their love for each other.

Love had it's magic charm on them.Sarah and maximus married and lived happily everafter,with the same love,warmth,care and affection till their last breath.

Closing moments:Love is what was needed for their happiness.Sarah left her kingdom for her man-Maximus.Maximus never let her hand go,after she kept her's in his, at the party.He stood against the king, daringly and married her.To him,she was the princess always and his treasure.To her,his home was the palace and he was her kingdom and world.Love is, what made their life......

If only i knew......

If only i knew,child's innocence is  its gift 

It is for in future, its forfeit

If only i knew,a girl should not only be seen and heard

She should also be smart,strong and bold

If only i knew,friends are not made  

They are also born, at times

If only i knew, relatives are not like people in attic

They are always, our critic

If only i knew, whatever we do,our family never fall

Family is, above all

If only i knew, am not the only one in my hubby's heart

There are things, attimes to put us apart

If only i knew, my child too has its own life

Even if i care living for it,my entire life

If only i knew,life is a crap

I would have, gone out of the map

If only and only if i had....

My dear tree

This is my tree

I always love to see

It is my best friend

Our love knew no end

It had me in its branches

As a kid having crunches

It gave me cool breeze

When i finished my race

It showed me love

As if i was in its branch,as a dove

It made me feel a motherly warmth

Which i never felt anywhere else on earth

My sweet dear  tree ,u are

What am i gonna do to u ,to show my care?

You show your care with shade,breeze and oxygen

Mankind show their meanness with deforestation

Am not able to save you

Am i fit to be a friend of you?