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Its been a very long time with my blog.Its nt that am so busy ,or dat i got sumthin else in my life to hold me up or watever,bt i have been a quite a long time away from my blog....i dn post as often as i used to ,i dn get thoughts as  it used to be,am jus blank in every thought ,Just fed up to dream,to think ,Duno its unusual kinda me,may be am changing or i may not.Sumthing  i search fot still,i havent  found out yet,Life is teaching me new lessonsssss.
and the important one which goes on now in those lessons,is never be careless.Well,yeah i have been a careless a  lottttt,i missed ,i messed up things around me,spoiled friendship,established friendships,kinda,Life is interesting as usual in its each frame,but i have missed to adore n admire it a long time,I missing up my fellow readers,who d hell wl hang on  to ur blog,if u write crap or dn blog at al,lol,watever i started to write up sumthing,but endin  up writing sumthing,blankkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Rude

Nope ,i dont have the heart to see some one rude to me or to any other.I have always given it back regardless of who it was may be my friens or my principal,just whoever.People do occasionally think from one end attimes and think that am the rudest girl,just seeing me giving the dose back,if only they knew that what has happened earlier.

Growing up is never always fun,people keep criticising you,if you are popular,whatever you do ,whether you are or not.I have been facing a lot such situations,but i never stopped to explain whom i am,if they think am rude,am least bothered.But my mom keeps preaching me ,society matters a lot and all must think me a good polite girl alone.I do go by her words attimes trying to be polite ever,smiling when hurt or one pest talks to you just toooo much or whatever.

It so happened that one day a senior of mine,standing in lab never bothered to answer my friends query,pretending to havent listened at all.Well ,i din't do anything then.After a few weeks,it so happened that she came to our class to me regarding a department function,i did the same and just the same,she touched and called i responded then,she enquired if i din;t hear me calling before,i said 'nope'.After all she would have understood how bad it hurts.May be this is kiddish ,to go for tit for tat,but i just wanted to share this ,may be am rude,whatever.I hate people who hurt,rude.......

Feeling lost...

Few things in life never had an answer.Why we come across stupid situtations?why we do wrong?why we come across bad times?why our friend leaves us?why do we fail the important work?why we cry for a movie?why we feel bad about ourself's?Why our dear ones are not with us when we need them?The list goes on and on.Hope everyone would have heard "nothing ever does happen without god's knowledge".If so why the hell does he create all such situations and experiences in life.Everyone are god's child right?Then why should he give us a bad situation and then save us from that?Why should he a create a terrorist as well as a priest?Are we toys for him to play with?Just feeling lost :(

Hurt,hurts...

Have you ever hurt anyone whom you really care and love so much?Well,if so when you came to know you have hurted them,how on earth did you feel?did you feel much worse than you think that would have hurted them or did u feel bad about yourself? i felt ashamed of me.I felt that i behaved selfishly.i cursed myself and experiencing an ununderstandable mysterious pain.It just made me understand acting without thinking just cos she is your dear friend or your dear mom or your's will just make the other person feel uncomfortable.I am kinda disturbed yaar,life is still unwinding me lot of emotions and lessons to me.God only knows,what is still in hold,but in the other instinct its okay man,it just teaches me how and what and all i must avoid in future.Growing up can never be always fun.Life is n't too good always.

Well,well.cooooooool,this post is  of  my rants.Sathana is becoming nuts,she hurts and gets hurted :(

I hate rules......do you?

A hatred has come over in me

I guess it hasn't come over now

It has growed and nutured deep

In my heart as i grew

This hatred is towards the rules

Those ruining rules laid on me

Never did i have any clues

You will know only if you were me

It made wry and cry

It got my best and worst

It hurted badly and sadly

It builded me a toy and coy

Rules has to be broke

Rules has to be laid

Former, those others laid on me

Latter, what i want on me

Rules are to make us live, life

Not to make us run out of life

I can make my very own rules

That is what the remedy,the only capsule...

 

Cooooool

Life is too boring at times.yep,today i experienced it fully.There was no power in the afternoon and the sun high up in the sky,huh,it was damn hot.I was wondering how life would be if there is no electricity at all? oh my god! i just can't imagine.How can i ever survive without AC,Cool water from the fridge,Light,charging my mobile,ma ipod,watching television and most of all without my system and browsing????Thank god,it is not the case.Afternoons are sulky always and mostly when it comes to summer.Just feeling exhausted and just wish to doze off now.coooool.

R u criticised?

Did u ppl ,find ma last script intersting?wel i dint much.i had a comment wat yu upto,n d conclusion n title wer captivating ,kinda truth.Whoever, tanx 4 d comment.i personally wasnt much satisfied wid dat article.U knw wat i generally start writing in ma own flow of thoughts n have never edited anything,wat wil b my final copy,wil b ma first copy as wel,am used to it.1 of ma fren asked me to write on friendship n so i fixed d title, started writing,din feel much comfortable,i edited thrice n posted n d article stil dint cum satisfactory.May b if  i had published ma first copy it wd hav been more captivating.Jus wanted to say dis cos,v hav 2 b always ourself,u can hear  other's opinion ,bt wat our heart says must b d decision.Correct if am wrong n if u guys feel last script was equally good.

Being a gal n her twenty's,i often cum across lots of Queries wich i feel lik askin,so jus wanted to share it here.u gals out ther ,al most al must hav come across dese wordings'u r no more a kid,behave urself'.Havn't u?i do many times.i hav a teddy ,a very cute one,wich i keep wd ma self attimes,jus note attimes i had comments ,'y u do u wanna act lik kid?','dnt pretend 2 b a kid'.Pardon me,its ma very own teddy n wil keep it wd me ,even if am n my sixties.Am not tellin dis out rudely ,jus consider ma feelings too.Am jus a growing up gal,or young woman or watever.

Sumtimes i really get confused if i have to behave lik a grown up or growing up.Cos der r lot of situations in wch d society treat u as a kid ,n jus keep tellin' u r too young to decide or to talk or to be lik dis'.Den y shud nt i keep ma teddy wd me wen i want?Am damn confused...My dear Society wat u want out of ds little woman,to be ur slave? to abide by ur words?NOPE,dn expect me to be,i wil nt,Its ma very own life,i wil live it to ma heart content.Even i do have responsibilites of keeping up d family's name,Our culture n al,i wil abide by it,bt nt by ur RULES.V indian Gals,brought up in tamil culture wil always try to bring in Pride to the family n a gud reputation.So jus leav us by ourselfs,evenif  v dnt bring u pride,wil atleast hav the content of venturing towards our dreams n happiness.

D critics of d society doesnt cum only from d elder age ppls,bt do cum from our own frens as well,d ppl of our age group.An acquaintance,i hav to cal her as my fren only,cos i dnt consider anyone as ma foe,told me ma blog s rather scripted a lot,no links,no images,no quotes n much more ,c told me ,ma RSS feed s very simple n dat it wnt attract readers.Jus wanna reply her n ds article.My dear fren ,am not Rude,am not Impatient,am not Hasty,bt ppl lik u make me so ,very often,even ma yogasana's n meditation doesnt help me out to control ma temper wen u pest's talk to me lik ds.I have been tellin, its ma Style,i wil write lik dis n dis wil be ma RSS feed.D readers hav to be attracted in ma words not n d links nor d images or watever.hope u understood my dear fren.

Uuuuuuuuf,i think i got realy nuts talkin abt those frens of mine,sorry guys ,it drove me mad n anger,feelin much more relieved now.My dear Readers,i know am jus buidling up ma blog n fans,n follwers,if u feel contented reading ma blog,n if ma words really attract u ,pls do let me know,am jus dyin  to hear such words......