If i only i knew......

I would never have been careless with time,
 If only i knew i can never get it back....

I would  never have fought with  friends,
 If only i knew how long they will be my friends...

I would never   have let you down,
 If only i knew how deep your love is on me...

Miss u......

We have been really these happy days

As happy as trees   in May

With you by my side

Kept all my fears aside

The voice of you

The thought of you

The cranky messages you sent

The poetry words you said

The warmth and comfort we shared

We were miles away which we never cared

Everything and each thing you did to me

Made me feel am the princess of your heart

I do discern nothing in you has changed

But why do i miss you, still??????

I love you......

I love you......
Which you think,i shall speak out

I love you......

What you tell,i shall follow instantly

I love you......
When you need,i shall be there

I love you......
Why you worry,i shall cry then

I love you......
Where you go ,i shall go too

I love you......

Am With you now and always......

What is it,that is missing??????

Something is yet to be said or done

I attempt to figure it out

Is it cos of life's hushing rush

Which conquers my mind alltime

Or is it cos of the superiority complex 

Or possessiveness or whatever

I am fed up of things 

Which were close to me once

I run out of thoughts

Even to my dearies and fairies

Life is as usual in its run

Which no longer appeals me as fun

I need  a  word or deed

Which is my very need

A word which will invigorate

A deed making me feel venerated

Am the one ,the ONE who is me and very much me

And i wish to conquer and occupy my place ,solely......

Am nt the first ,but the best......

I wanted to be the first

I aspired to be the first

I longed to be the first

I  was inspired to be the first

And i endeavored to become  the first

I  walked up the hill,i thought am the first ever

I won the match ,i thought am the first

I lost.,i thought am the first

whether its my innocence or my idiocy

Am nt the first,i can never be the first.

Whatever i have done,doing or do

Whatever i said,saying,or will say 

Somebody has ,have ,or had

I was disappointed,kinda vexed

What is this life?

I can never be first 

And yeah ,not the last too

Cos am nt the first or last human in this world

I am following the foottraces of survival

But i wont be the same as all

Ya,am not he first,

Am nt the last

But i will be surely one 

Among the best,

The best ever......

It, is,with you...

If you are not, able to smile

When a friend of yours,near and dear

Changes with time,brings out your tear

The trouble, is, with you...

If you are not, able to know

Who cares ,you the most

whom,you can always trust

The blunder,is, with you...

If you are not able to succeed

Keeping your confidence, up

When there is disappointment, showing up

The gaffe,is , absolutely with you...

HE and SHE

He is, her handsome prince

She is, his loving princess ever

He always,does 'everything for my girl'

She forever,says 'anything for my man'

He is,her Life

She is,his survival

Love is,What is eternal

Only,when it is mutual

Let 'he' and 'she' be blessed ever

With this love forever and ever......

Getting conscious......

Its time, i turned back 

Its time, i stopped to think

Its time, i doubted myself

Its time, i hated me

Well,i never must have

I never ever should have my dear

Thing were all fine

I  was the happiest

only till i doubted me

Things were all worse

I was the miserable

Only when i doubted me

I thought things are in my hands

Nope,god is the one who holds it

Thanks my lord

you made me realise atleast now

I would never doubt me,its you who guide me

Never,ever again ......

Lucky to have you......my dear

Nothing can appeal me much than your smile

Even when we are cast away a mile

You are always there to hear my stupidities

My wild dreams,stupid thoughts and activities

I have never felt when with you any boredom

you always let me have my freedom

Your words,actions everything is so gentle

you take care of me and act as a mantle

I create a mess as bad it can be

you are always there to bear with me

There is nothing  that i fear 

when i know you are near

Silence

A cyclone doesn't hurt as it does

A earthquake does less harm

Silence hurts......

It is the silent water that drowns a man

A word not uttered when needed kills too

Silence pains......

Busy streets,chaos and confusion doesn't fright

Emptiness of silence terrifies

Silence is grave......

Shouting and yelling in anger is better

Silent actions  guilt the opponent

Silence kills......

Light is love, peace and god

Dark is hatred,uproar and evil 

Silence is dark......

Speech is silver,Silence is golden

Speech give us ease,silence make us cease

Is it golden then?

Indifference

Think before you  speak

Analyse before you act

Scribble before you paint

Pretend before you perform

Know before you acknowledge

Write before you script

Realise before you react

Interpret before you intimate

For in future you may not be able to......

I wish,i were......

I wish i  were the light

Fast ever traveller in this world

I will be the first to reach you always

I will make ur surroundings bright

The very flash you step into dark

I wish i were the air

Invisble and omnipresent

I will respire through you always

I will surround you with breeze 

The  very moment you are upto panic

I wish i were the sky

with clouds that are high

I will see you all day beneath me

I will make you cool with rain

The very instant you tend to strain

I wish i were the water

Pleasant and immense

I will fall cheerfully to give you a pleasant mood

I will quench your thirst

The very minute you feel parched

I wish i were the land

Gentle and loud

I will give you all my treasures

I will hold you in my hands 

The very jiffy you are about to slip

I wish i were so......

But am a little imp girl

Combating and comprehending

Just existing and trying to live

I wish i were......

Reach out

Stand up 

when you have to,even if your legs are fractured

Reach out

when you are needed,even if you are dying

Smile up

when you feel like,even if your cheeks are bleeding

Smirk down

when you are hurted,even if you can't bear it

Love eternally

when you are in love,even if not reciprocated

Live perpetually

when you are born,even if you know your death day

Cos' this is a world which is eternal

Everything else is momentary

Anything and everything changes

Except the change itself

Cos'people love,live,smile only with those,who is with them

Reach out

when you are needed,even if you are dying

If you don't reach out,they will learn to live in your absence

Waiting ??????

30 minutes

1800 seconds

108000 milliseconds

I have this is my hand

I am made to wait

Waiting can be fun as well as frown 

It can be spent in planning

It can be spent in reading

It can be spent in complaining

I always prefer it in dreaming

Well,what shall i dream in this 30 minutes

May be,am wrong few minutes have already past

Well my,what shall i dream now?

i keep thinking and planning about what to dream

Just trying to rewind what all i wanted to be

Shall i dream am the queen of this world?

Or shall i dream am the best poet in the world?

Nor shall i dream as talking to god?

either shall i dream to win the best blogger award?

No,maximum visitors and readers are the best awards 

Oh my god,i just don't get any thought to dream about

Dreams must be spontaneous or planned?

oh god,i wanted to dream now,why querying myself?

Well,just relax,though i tried to plan,dream and all

Time doesnt wait for none,30 minutes is about to be over 

Hey my readers,i was trying to write some poem on waiting,ended up thus...lol.Well,i am experimenting and as usual......

Break down the wall or it will make us fall

Between you and me,there is a wall

If it stands ,it will make us fall

Break down the wall

It makes us dismal

Moments shared seem to be a blemish

Its all and only the wall's gibberish

Attimes makes us blameworthy and fight

It is trying to leave our relationship a blight

The wall is starting its attrition

Pull it down before it is a partition

Break down this wall my dear

Or it will make us fall......

I am my dear......

I may not be there,where you are attimes,

but am always there

I may not be  able to talk to you,when you call,

but am always talking in our hearts

I may not be in your arms,when you need

but am always there

I may not be with you,smiling at you

but am in your smile

I may not be able to give my praise,when you win

but then,am the proudest

I may not be there to console you,when you lose

but am the one who cares most

I may not be able to,but i am my dear......

I hate rules......do you?

A hatred has come over in me

I guess it hasn't come over now

It has growed and nutured deep

In my heart as i grew

This hatred is towards the rules

Those ruining rules laid on me

Never did i have any clues

You will know only if you were me

It made wry and cry

It got my best and worst

It hurted badly and sadly

It builded me a toy and coy

Rules has to be broke

Rules has to be laid

Former, those others laid on me

Latter, what i want on me

Rules are to make us live, life

Not to make us run out of life

I can make my very own rules

That is what the remedy,the only capsule...

 

I don't go by words......

I don't go by words,when a baby cries for milk

I don't go by words,when a child longs to play

I don't go by words,when a girl wills to venture dreams

I don't go by words,when a mother hugs in care 

I don't go by words,when a friend clutches from fall

I don't go by words,when a said to be rival smiles

I don't go by words,when the rain is so tempting 

I don't go by words,when a rule is not a rule indeed

I don't go by words,when actions speak more than words

I don't go by words,when the eyes reveal what the lips deny

I don't go by words,when spoken words were really not meant

I can never go by words,when my heart tells what am into is right......

I,me,My mom......

I just can't tell how much i care

My love for you is  tender

Am your angel,attimes am your devil

You bear with me with a smile

I hurt you badly,Drive you mad

I always do it to you when am sad

I confide in you,attimes maintain secrecy

Though you know it,you give me privacy

I fight to eat

 a racket i create

Whatever i do,say or behave, you are the same

If only i knew having you is my real fame

I have to tell you,Everthing that is gifted in me is cos of u

Everthing that has hurted you is cos of me

My sweet dear mother,You are so soft as a feather

You are the sweetest mother ever,am afraid i ain't a perfect daughter

Life

I am,in the situation of robert frost

Life is giving me choices among the rest

I have to choose one,at my own cost

And that,what would be my quest.

I sit up in my bed thinking all night,

Is there anything which will make everything all right?

Yep,It is to hold my dream tight,

And to make it true ,even fight.

Life gives me a mixture of emotions

It tries to make  me stay

Am standing among all the commotions

Wanting to make my way.

I need to pave my way to make myself, alive

Have to care for my dears, make them say

This is for what you gotto live

What am i gonno do to yay?

Letting go of my dream is to let go of my life

Without my life,why the hell should i stand on this worldly knife?